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lunarhuang) wrote2023-01-24 01:33 am
lunarhuang) wrote2023-01-24 01:33 am
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i don't know what the fuck i'm doing but it's worth a shot
greetings.
to be very honest i do not know how any of this works, but i am indeed in a bind with my life right now so i'd reckon that there is no better timing than now to try out new things that may help to keep bad thoughts feelings etc at bay. i have never blogged, also never have been exactly great with tumblr, made my carrds and txti with... 95% help from videos others have uploaded on the internet (i lied. it was 99% help. I'll give myself that 1% credit for my own dignity) so. you'd probably have a very vivid idea of how exactly bad i am with these kinds of things, and you'll only further witness how untalented i am with aesthetics and making it a reality because i do Not know how to live without mixing up two extremes of aesthetics lmao.
nevertheless, the need to ramble undoubtedly surpasses all these concerns and insecurities, hence here i am. on my second attempt with this site baby. and i guess an introduction is overdue, so here we go lmaoooo
freshly turned 20 approximately a month ago, was dragged through hell and back in medschool and to be dragged more for at least a thousand more turns, surprisingly finds stupid reasons to live in the short term very easily but holy fuck is it hard to find purpose in the long run. forgot to mention that i am severely incapacitated in terms of socialising, which i guess makes my presence here all the more... logical lololol. prominent interests over the years include youtubers (leaning more towards lets players), games, anime, kpop. and renjun. of course. recently developed ones include figure skating, tv series focusing on fucked-up-but-still-trying protagonists, and discovering music from genres i do not usually delve into.
i like to be alone but i also feel alone sometimes, and it does coexist. i've hit two rock bottoms at least throughout my life, and the bad feelings come and go as they please more often than not. no, i do not know how to keep them away for life, but hopefully i will soon enough.
niceeeee. this seems good enough. will hopefully come back soon enough to draft out my thoughts on my interests because i have A Lot to say about them. always. obviously. i can never consume a media and act normal about it. i have to make it my Personality.
signing out now yihh
to be very honest i do not know how any of this works, but i am indeed in a bind with my life right now so i'd reckon that there is no better timing than now to try out new things that may help to keep bad thoughts feelings etc at bay. i have never blogged, also never have been exactly great with tumblr, made my carrds and txti with... 95% help from videos others have uploaded on the internet (i lied. it was 99% help. I'll give myself that 1% credit for my own dignity) so. you'd probably have a very vivid idea of how exactly bad i am with these kinds of things, and you'll only further witness how untalented i am with aesthetics and making it a reality because i do Not know how to live without mixing up two extremes of aesthetics lmao.
nevertheless, the need to ramble undoubtedly surpasses all these concerns and insecurities, hence here i am. on my second attempt with this site baby. and i guess an introduction is overdue, so here we go lmaoooo
freshly turned 20 approximately a month ago, was dragged through hell and back in medschool and to be dragged more for at least a thousand more turns, surprisingly finds stupid reasons to live in the short term very easily but holy fuck is it hard to find purpose in the long run. forgot to mention that i am severely incapacitated in terms of socialising, which i guess makes my presence here all the more... logical lololol. prominent interests over the years include youtubers (leaning more towards lets players), games, anime, kpop. and renjun. of course. recently developed ones include figure skating, tv series focusing on fucked-up-but-still-trying protagonists, and discovering music from genres i do not usually delve into.
i like to be alone but i also feel alone sometimes, and it does coexist. i've hit two rock bottoms at least throughout my life, and the bad feelings come and go as they please more often than not. no, i do not know how to keep them away for life, but hopefully i will soon enough.
niceeeee. this seems good enough. will hopefully come back soon enough to draft out my thoughts on my interests because i have A Lot to say about them. always. obviously. i can never consume a media and act normal about it. i have to make it my Personality.
signing out now yihh