Okay, I'm sorry for commenting on an older post (I wasn't sure if you'd be comfortable with a PM) but that's called passive suicidal ideation and it's a very real thing that lots of people struggle with. It's as serious as actively trying to take your own life. Your feelings and struggles are as real and valid as other people, and you deserve help.
Crisis Text Line 741741 (text "HOME" to this number to contact with a counselor. They are online 24/7)
988 (If you are in America you can call this number to talk to a counselor. Also online 24/7)
P.S. I found your page because I was clicking the "random journal" button and saw your page. It didn't feel right not saying something after I saw you mentioned feeling suicidal. I know this was from a year ago but those thoughts can come back to haunt you when you least expect it.
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Okay, I'm sorry for commenting on an older post (I wasn't sure if you'd be comfortable with a PM) but that's called passive suicidal ideation and it's a very real thing that lots of people struggle with. It's as serious as actively trying to take your own life. Your feelings and struggles are as real and valid as other people, and you deserve help.
Crisis Text Line
741741 (text "HOME" to this number to contact with a counselor. They are online 24/7)
988 (If you are in America you can call this number to talk to a counselor. Also online 24/7)
P.S. I found your page because I was clicking the "random journal" button and saw your page. It didn't feel right not saying something after I saw you mentioned feeling suicidal. I know this was from a year ago but those thoughts can come back to haunt you when you least expect it.